Last Night Rolling In My Mind

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Yd hai aj bhi mje mere bchpn ka wo bura spna. Jisme dekna tha maa mne khote hue tje mjse.

Wo shyd phli bar he tha jb tu mjse door hui thi. Yaad h mje mai bht royi thi spne me. Aasu mere subh hone tk bhte rhe.

Uthte he jb mne tje dekha na maa tb dil ko sukoon mila or uthte he tje rote rote wo mera bura Spna btaya. 

Fir mje wo bh din yd jb phli bar mje tere Bina Sona pda or aadi raat me uth k mai bht royi thi jb tu mje mere pas na dikhi.

Jor jor se aadi raat me maa bs tumhe he pukara tha. Fir tum aai or mje gale se lgaya tb jaake sukoon mila.

Fir thodi bdi hui school jaane lgi. Wo school ka phla din bhi yd mje aaya jb tum mje chdne aai thi or tum to chli gyi mje class m baitha kr pr pure din m roti thi tumhre intjaar me. Kb tum aaogi to mje apne pas leke jaaogi.

Phli bar tum mje chd k 2 din k liye dusre shehr gyi thi. Tum mje bta k bhi nahi gyi thi kyuki tumhe pta tha fir m tumre sath jaane ki zidd krungi

Papa the mje sambhle k liye par mje to tumhri he aadat h na. Wo do din mere kse the mje Aaj bhi yd hai.

Tb bhi mai bht roti thi tumhre liye. Fir jb 2 din bd tum aayi to mri khusi ka thikana he nhi tha. Mai thda gussa bhi hui or pucha tumse mje akele kyu chdke gyi to tum boli dekh mai tere liye kpde laayi hu, khilone laayi hu or wo baat mje bhula di. 

Tum jha jha jaati thi, sath tumhre hmesha Jaya krti thi. Tum jo pyar se khilati wo khaya krti thi. Tum jo pehanti thi vhi pehna krti thi. 

Phli bar esa hua mje kch saalo k liye tumse dur Jana pda. Bol k to gyi thi mai ki bs 3 mahino k liye ja rhi hu par 2.5 saal kse ho gye pta he nahi chla.

Faisla mera tha kyuki mje aage pdna tha or tumhra he nam roshn krna tha. Wo phli raat anjan shehar k anjan kmre me. Teri kami mje hmesha satati thi. Jb Jb jikr tera hua to jaane kse mai khd ko mnati thi.

Fir wo khusi ka bhi koi thikana nhi jb phli br itne dino tjse dur rhke tre pas aana tha.

Mera sukoon ho tum shyd kbhi bta nhi paayi na bta paungi. Mri har mushkil me mne tumhe mere pas paya h. Sb yaad h kse mere exams me tum mjse jldi uth k mje uthaya krti thi. Or kse jb mai der raat jag k pdai krti to tum mre sath jga krti. 

Yd h na tje jb m bhoot ka Spna dekhti thi to bht dar jaati thi or kse mummy mummy kiya krti thi. Fir kse tjse chipak k so Jaya krti thi

Bdi ho gyi hu ab pr dil Aaj bh uss choti bcchi ka h jo apni maa ko khdse dur nhi kr skti. Kbhi seekha he nhi tre bina rhna.

Subh uthke tri aawaj sunna, meri galtiyo pe mje daatna. 

Pta nhi wo himmat kha se laungi jb shadi k dusre din tje mjse door jaata dekhungi. Mai dkh he na Pau isleye khi chhup k baith jaungi. 

Mje maaf krna mri saari galtiyo k liye. Meri laaparvahiyon k liye. Tujse sb seekha bs tujh bin jeena nhi seekha.

Dil abhi bhi darta h, aage ka Safar bht lmba h. Tu bs khus rhna. Hasti rhna. Mai bh seekh jaungi pr Teri kmi hmesha rhegi. Jo kisi or k aane se puri nhi hogi. Apna khyal rkhna






 

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